Category Archives: Life/ Perspective

Desentization

I am beginning to think that I might have been becoming a little desensitized not too long ago….

When bad things were happening in the world -one event after the other-  I noticed I didn’t feel a direct emotion  or immediate sympathy towards the situation.

I felt nothing.

Nonchalantly I would wonder, “Oh Yeah,  was that another bombing that just happen yesterday?” or yeah, “Did they just kill another one of our brothers?”

Something wasn’t right and that wasn’t  me.

I am so built to love.

Not that cold-hearted BS my mind had created as normal……..

I’m glad I got back right.

I Said I Wouldn’t Do Long Distance Love Again….

So, when I was younger, from like 14-18, I was in love with this guy named Jaylen. He was my first love as well as my first “long-distance love”.

Our relationship was a little super crazy.

So, when it finally ended I made a declaration that I would never ever ever ever do that again. Told my friends, told my family, and told God. I was serious.

Fast forward present day, and Look a Here.

I’m in a Long-Distance Relationship.

It’s funny because I’ve always heard you should never say what you “won’t do again”. Because you never know what you “will do again”. Lord, if that is not true.

When I was with Jaylen I had a hard time with trust, I had a hard time with loyalty, and I had a hard time being by myself.

This time Something Was Different….

Well first-of-all, I cannot not mention how much I am totally head over heels in love with this man I am with today. So that helps.

But I know the supreme reason and the ultimate factor for why I was able to do it again and why I gave Long Distance Love another try is simply:

“I learned from my past relationship and I grew as a woman.”

Those two things I did not take into consideration when I made my declaration of never doing this again.

I no longer have issues with being by myself, because I took the time to really and thoroughly enjoy and get to know myself. (Insteaddddd of looking for this comfort in someone else) I now pay attention to my body, began working out, got back in school, and joined a church. Keeping busy and Staying productive. (Look at God)

I no longer have trust issues because I simply now know what trust is. ——-If I don’t trust the person I am with, then why am I with them? Simple as that.

And I no longer have loyalty issues because I began to focus on being the person I wanted to have in my life. How could I have so many expectations for what I wanted in a partner but I didn’t showcase it myself? Naw, I had to get right.

So here I am. Saying I am in a Long Distance relationship and I love it. I love God, I love me and I love him.

Yep. 

College were the Best Years

I just realized why college were my “Best Years”. 

happy britt

It was because in college I was able to be an “Adult” but I didn’t have any of the real “Adult” responsibilities. 

Don’t get me wrong, It was definitely a learning experience.

But this real deal “Adult” thing I am going through now?

Nah…..It aint nothing like this.

So yeah, College was definitely some of the most enjoying years. But I am even more excited to see what will come out of this “Real World experience I am going thorough…”

Guess we will see……

1 Corinthians: Chapter 12

In this chapter the Bible talked about how WE as a people, are ONE function and compared us to the parts of the body as they operate as one function too.

1 Cort. 12:12- “The human body has many parts, but the many parts make up one whole body. So it is with the body of Christ.”

Basically: Everyone has a role, and everyone has their own purpose.

No 1 purpose is better than the other, and no 1 function can operate fully without the other.

 We need each other, and each of our special roles in order to operate as a whole. 

God Said: We are all beautiful and we are all special!

Once I read that I told myself:

Self, Be who you are meant to be. Everyone has different talents all for different reasons. I CAN-NOT worry about what the next person is doing or how they are doing it or why.

I gots’ to worry about myself.

I need to figure out what I do BEST and how I can use that talent to please God and stay up in his GRACE.

Gotta be special!

 

My Black Girl Anthem

If you are ever going through something,– A Heartbreak,  A Job Loss,  Life Upset, you name it.

This song is what you need to listen to.

I call it my “Black Girl Anthem.

It’s a oldie but goodie. But this song is so real and so cool.

Do you hear how she say “Eleven- Years, I -Sacrificed.”

It don’t matter if its been 12 years or 1 year for you –you feel what she is saying.

We have all sacrificed.

The key is like Mary says is: That we not gone cry.

To be more precise, She aint say she never cried,

She said “I’m not gone cry no more.”

Its a difference.

Yall betta listen to Mary. ***Snaps Fingers*****

In The Midst Of It All 


I must say……… 2017 has been quite jolly so far.

(sips smoothie)
#Shoutout to January

#Shoutout to everybody getting their life on track

#Shoutout to being able to say NO to the devil

ANDDDDDDDDDD

 #Shoutout to the people on daily beast mode.

Yall the real MVPs.

Le-Git.
But Kick it.  
Two Thousand and Sixteen.
That YEAR?? (#Bad&Boujee)

Smh.

That year was tough.
But, I looked at it like this:  

It’s Old News,

I Cant Change the Past,

I Didn’t Die from It, ANDD

by the Grace of God– Everyday is A Brand New Day.

So Hey!
I didn’t have no choice but to pick up my chin

and to keep on trucking.

Its by design.

But, not only was I able to let go of such a hard year and to legit keep it moving.

I had also came out of 2016 with a key.  
A cool a** key to be exact.  
This key was my new motto.

A new look at life, and A new way to do things.

I had found Balance.

Not too much of this.

And not too much of that.

Or a little bit of this.

And a little bit of that.

Its All About the Balance.

Aint no more play without the same amount of work being definitely put in, aint no more overthinking in my soul without researching it in my brain,  and no more rewards without discipline.

Simple. 
So Yeah, 2017 is gonna be lit.

And it’s GOT TO BE great.

But most importantly:

It’s Gonna be Balanced.

Aint no way around it (In my Future voice)